Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in ice_erinyess' LiveJournal:

Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
9:14 pm	PARTY -for sure this time Party at stephs house saturday 'll be there at 11:30. BYOB and cards movies or games. Can they be naughty games steph? oh wait no naughty games kids present lol darn... see steph for address ok life SUCKS!! i'm so drowning right now and trying to pull myself up in new cloths and friends. hey whatever works right??? and MEN OMG MEN i love him and cant stand the agony of it?? someone tell me what to do? but no one can i need ot decide on my own and i cant. why cant life be simple??? (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
7:41 pm	can i have more then one post a day.. i hope so because my thought are very disjointed... one thought keeps hammering in my head.. FIGHT OR FLIGHT (affecting brain power here!!!!) committ or run? Do i keep fighting it because i'm scared of it or do i give in... why am i fighting it I know i'm not going to win.. IN my heart I dont want to win because all i will win is a lifetime of lonelyness. my head screams run before my heart gets hurt, but is it already to late.... The ice has been chipped away and he strives to take the place of it. its all about blind faith as one friend pointed out the other day with out knowing it (thanks) .. Am i really this faithless in mankind? why does faith and trust make me feel so vunerable? He's seen the true me and accepts it with all the flaws, kinks and quirks.. when will I stop fighting it and accept him and everything he stands for? Am i strong enough to leap off that cliff not knowing whats at the bottom or how far it falls? (Comment on this)
Monday, April 4th, 2005
7:14 pm	whats this all about If misspelled words bug you dont read this!!! ok I had to see what was so special about this live journal thing. Seems cool. beats the journal i keep on my computer at home but no one ever gets to see that journal. Not sure why I started this because dont have time to think let alone write anymore. if you can count my run-on sentences as writing. Things are starting to calm down a little. I was starting to get really depressed, no one called on my bday, i never see anyone because i'm always on the go from school to work to sleeping, what my doctor found, MARK (god he drives me nuts is that a good thing or bad thing), finals coming up, work was asking fro overtime, liek i have enough time int eh day anyways. i got my classes schedled for school WHEWWW thats a load off and it looks like I might actually be done in 2 years. It hard for me to committ myself for the 2 years. I hate being locked down in anything. Hence i think that would be my man problems too. School i am going to finish though. I'm counting the days to quit my job, well IF everything works out.. still one bug to work out but i should know by the end of April. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
6:58 pm	PARTY great day i skipped school and want to go out and party.. whos with me (1 Comment |Comment on this)